Round 2

This is a story of a stupid thing I did.

You will recall that a few months ago I decided to give up soda cold turkey. I was focused on the yummy, brown, caffeinated sodas, the Diet Cokes and Diet Dr Peppers of the world. The month it took to feel free of headaches and cravings (yes, a whole MONTH), was one of the hardest self-inflected suckfests in recent memory. The first week was hellish. I had dreams of Diet Coke--seriously. I woke up immediately wanting a giant soda. I even cried a couple of times. Honestly, it was pretty embarassing how addicted I had become.

The days and weeks following that month, after I had kicked the sauce and didn't "need" it anymore, were AWESOME. I had done it! I conqured the beast! Slayed the dragon! Maybe just one Diet Coke with lunch wouldn't be so bad, since I was clearly so awesome at not being addicted anymore, right?

I think you know where this is going. I had one soda with lunch a few times. I ordered a medium, not a large, and patted myself on the back for such self-control. Then it was a large soda once a day. Then maybe a soda any time I ate out. I still didn't have soda in the house so I figured I was doing just fine. But then I brought some into the house for a party. And pretty soon I was driving through McDonalds in the morning to get a big soda for work, oh and why don't we make it two large sodas because I know I'll want one later. And maybe a large soda at lunch, and ....

I am right back where I started. One month to kick it, only a few weeks to slide right back.

Dammit! I don't think the craving or addiction is as bad as it was when I went cold turkey the first time, but it won't be long before it is. I want to be able to have it just a little, but maybe I can't. Like a freakin' alcoholic! Only this stuff won't kill me (quickly) or cause me to endanger people on the road. It will, however, cost me a lot of money and do damage to my body over time.

So tomorrow begins Soda Withdrawls Part Deux.

Lame.